which came first, the symptom or the self-psychotherapy?

This wasn’t my goal, honest. I was just hoping to find people with some common likes/beliefs/attitudes/influences.(art, hobbies, etc.) Searching through the endless numbers of LJ users with the same listed interests as myself, I have noticed some “trends”. (No, not the age difference thing.) I find a large number of people who suffer from insomnia. Another large group who are trying to get the dosage of their “medication” adjusted so that they feel better. (the two seem to be related in many cases) The question arises, did they get to be this way after starting to use LJ or do they use LJ because of their afflictions? Relationships in turmoil, on the verge or just having ended with some degree of mental anguish is very common. Death and its aftermath is dealt with frequently on these pages. (I suppose LJ is a convenient outlet for emotions)

Previously, on more than one occasion, someone I’m interacting with, after they get to know me a little, will one day turn to me and say, “You’re so weird!”. This no longer offends me and now I take it as a compliment. But after reading about the behavior and feelings so many others express, I’m beginning to believe I somehow have achieved normality. (I know, I know. You don’t have to say it, I will- “what’s normal?”) Boring, ho-hum, commonplace, unexciting dullness.

But in the words of my wife, after she learned the husband of one of her best friends was arrested on weapons and child-pornography charges after taking to the road with an underage girl, “Boring is good. I like boring.”


About Marcus

Who me? Introverted, neurotic, self-absorbed, increasingly cynical observer of human nature and part time social critic in hiding. Most of my life spent avoiding growing up. The naive idealistic passions of youth have evolved into the eclectic eccentricities of adulthood. Northeast Florida small-town native, related to people I can't relate to. Simultaneously my own best friend and worst enemy. Politically and spiritually unaffiliated, my personal ideologies put me all over the map or off it completely.
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